太阳花开

我最爱的花朵是太阳花，

它提醒了我

每天都是新的一天

跌到了记得爬起来

不论好或不好都会过去

辛苦或幸福一切是短暫

不要因为失败而选择放弃

不要因为成功而忘了感恩

每天都是另一个开始

每天都是美好的一天

18。03。14

花季寓言

花开花谢，生命没有什么是困难或辛苦；因为生命也有快乐的时候。不把困难当因难，把困难当成是一种人生的推动力。。。因为尝试过困难才会珍惜及进入人生的另一个高峰

快乐的童年

小时候，寻找快乐很简单；想要快乐也很简单。有冰雪吃，就可以高兴一整天。有机会坐上玩具电动车，就兴奋得很。有的去公园走走，就觉得做人真好。长大了，觉得小时候的这些玩意儿一点都不好玩，惜日的快乐以成为不可重来的回忆。。。

Life is so simple

I remembered..
My grandad's house used to has this...
there was lots of the "black cd" collections in the shelf..
meanwhile, I saw they throw the collections...after the invention of the CD player...
Life is just so simple! come and go! get and forget! New then become Old....When you think someone is doing bad to you, just observe when the time it comes, it go as well...Therefore compassion to everyone is like treating a vitamin for ourselves

The Gift of Happiness

photo by Khun Somkid Chaijitvanit

In one of my summer vacation, I went to visit several temples in Thailand. One of my Muslim friend suggested me to visit Sathira Dhammasathan, she told me that the chief nun,mae chee Sasannee. used to be the top model. The first steps I enter into the centre, it cooling my heart with its natural environments.

The story how I met mae chee Sasannee was starting with her biography book, the noble mission. In her biography book, she wrote “may you be free from sufferings”. I was reply that “ Yes, Mae chee, how you know this is my target of my life, be free from all sufferings, to attain nibbana”.

Mae chee always teaches us that the happiness appear when we able to gives.” She is the one who knew I did not have experience in organizing Buddhist activity, but she still accepted my invitation to Malaysia for conducting a workshop. She is the one who teaches me how to give instead of be a receiver. Her teaching is easy and simple, but it worked and changes my perspective of life.

For me, I always gratitude and appreciate to mae chee, who always gives me opportunity to learn and get involve in dharma activity. On 22 february 2011 was her 30th years birthday ordain as nun. 22 Feb 1971, she give up her luxuries life and enter into a simple life by ordain as a nun. Her 30th years dhamma contribution had benefit more than thousands of single mothers, her teaching influence and improving the life of all levels of groups start from children to elderly in worldwide.

To show my gratitude to her 30th years ordination work, I think the best dharma gift to cerebrate this important day for my teacher was ordain as a temporary nun. It is also a dharma gift for myself to inspire me towards the spiritual path.

Thank you.

Dear two of my younger sisters

The encourage message to two of my younger sisters, who going to graduate end of this year!!

"我在迷失的世界里生活了4年多；现在回头一望，感谢那迷失的日子，因为那过程,让我懂得寻找，学会望到更远，更清楚自己要什么，可以更勇敢做我自己！加油吧!我的那两个亲爱的妹妹!"

"Don't worry, sweetie! Losing direction is a essential path for everyone! You just need to believe, persistent, patient that you will find the RIGHT EXIT DOOR one day!!!There are no right or wrong, just aware the feeling of losing..."

"要有雨后，才会有彩红的出现；迷失是给我们思考的时间去想，去找我们真正要的人生道路！要经过寒冷的冬天,我们才会珍惜春天太阳的出现；经过了迷失的经历，它让我们学会要珍惜当下的可贵"！

"在迷宫寻找出路也是一种行动！别忘了老鼠与cheese的寓言故事！让我们这些找到出路的老姐，为还正刚要踏出社会的小妹们给予一点安慰话，安安他们内在的恐惧！一句安慰词，也能让迷失的人更快找到他要的出口！不是不行动，而是太多好的出口，不知道要选择那个，放弃那个！幸福的小妹，加油"

Growing up is a process, experience is the proceed, Failing is the producere towards the path of success!!

Spritual journey- Sarnath,Varanasi,India Nov 2009

Themes of the trip:

Aloka Novitiate Program 2009

Location:

Sarnath,Varanasi, India

Duration:

13 to 29 Dec 2009

Organisation:

Aloka Foundation

Sarnath, the place where the Lord Buddha preached his first sermon...the teaching of the four noble truth, the first buddha disciple ven. Kondanna who realised n attained the sottapana when the buddha preached the sutta..the first 5 monks became arahants...

My another inner journey starts from This holy place,
where gives me opportunity to reconnect to the lord buddha;
where enable me to experiece and feel the supreme positive energy left by the lord buddha for us;
In this holy place, in this noviatiave program, it gives me a chance to further develop my spritual life experience, leading me to see the path i should take refuge for and knowing the purpose of my life more clearly...

In addition, We have such a great fortune that able to met his holiness of the 17th Karmapa, who gaves us a short talk, blessing n able to took group pictures with his holiness.....

I sincerly gratitude to my parents,Ven. Mahinda,sister sumitra and sister sumagala who gives me lots of support and encouragement in this journey...
My turning point is start from this journey....

My new slogan " I will be a good daughter of my parents, when the time I am ready,I will be a good daughter of the lord buddha"...

23102009

The very last lecture...
3 years have been passed;
23 Oct 20009,last day of my lecture in the degree course...
Waiting for the very final degree exams....

Looking back to these 3 years university life in Monash uni..
I still have lots of things havent do; havent learn; havent experience....
Meanwhile, I have learned lots of things, have experience lots of fun and adventure

What is life? what is the meaningful life means to us?
Lots of question marks arise in my mind...

I had lost my direction in the past 3 years,
luckly
Now my direction and what I want to do and be after graduate is become clearer and brighten
May the sunshine always be with me and guide me to a prosperity and happiness path of life....
May god always be with us...

Sharing article "我无能为力，但是我能了解。"

如果有一天你看到我的悲伤，你发现我的黑暗面，
你什么都不需要做。。。
因为我知道，对我，虽然你总感觉无能为力，但是我知道你能了解，我需要的是你静静的陪伴。”

Sources from 作者：阿册
http://www.ulement.net/2009/08/sansan/14920-%e6%88%91%e6%97%a0%e8%83%bd%e4%b8%ba%e5%8a%9b%ef%bc%8c%e4%bd%86%e6%98%af%e6%88%91%e8%83%bd%e4%ba%86%e8%a7%a3%e3%80%82.html

Changeable life, life is changeable

THe puppy enter to my life....
Puppy is like my baby...
Because of her, I learns how to take care, how to give love, how to contribute my time...


A sense of happiness arise, when see her grow up healthly, when see her welcome me back home, when see her go outside to poo and pee, when see her playing happily....

Morning become more meanigful to me, a incomplete mission for me...
I wake up automatically around 7am because my morning mission is to bring her out to the garden, let her pee and poo, then see her exciting face when I am preparing the breakfast for her, then I let her to plays alone in the garden...
It is time for me to clear my room, to sweep the floor, to mop the floor, washing away the dirt and dog smelly replacing with the fresh fragmented dettol smell....
My first time in my life, learning to keep my room clean, happy and enjoying doing housework
because of the puppy, my baby...
Around 9am, the puppy will wait outside the dog, waiting me to open the door for her to come back inside the room...
A time for me to clean her feet, to dry her wet feet, to put on puppy fragemented powder to make her smell good, feeding her with vitamin, then she is happy to go back to the room and having a nap....

4pm...A time for her to have dinner...She likes Can food, not dry food;
she likes fresh chicken, not dry food;
A time for her to have poo outside.....a time for her to plays outside...
Now, she doesn't like to stay outside because it is hot,;
she doesnt' like to be alone outside so she follows us closely;

10pm, the most exciting and energetic time for my puppy, little diamond
She become so playful at this time...
She act like a mad small dog....
She is barking....

A moonlight is brighting the late and dark night, a time for us and Diamond go to bed..A sweet night, because we are still together with each other...

Love is hidding everywhere,it is waiting us to explore it...
Life is changeable, so we will not get bored of our life...

改变,变化

再过三个星期,就要迎接＝＋五岁的到来,告别＝＋四岁的束...
╴路走来....＝＋四岁的那最后的三个月,改变了我,也因此我的生活开始有了变化

与童话那首歌比, 大姐,我想小甜窝这首歌里头的几句话比较适合我

我还在寻找 一个依靠
和一个拥抱
谁替我祈祷 替我烦恼
为我生气为我闹

幸福开始有预兆
缘分让我们慢慢紧靠
然后孤单被吞没了
无聊变得有话聊 有变化了

小酒窝 长睫毛 是你最美的记号
我每天睡不着 想念你的微笑
你不知道 你对我多么重要
有了你 生命完整的刚好

小酒窝 长睫毛 迷人的无可救药
我放慢了步调 感觉像是喝醉了
终于找到 心有灵犀的美好
一辈子暖暖的好
我永远爱你到老

现在的我发现这些人都围绕在我身边,不只是–个,是大于一....
这包括了父母亲,姐妹,狗狗.........Etc

Our home new family members-golden retriever

28 May 2009...
A new puppy born in this small little planet.
It name as golden retriever,female, white mixed with gold colour with fur
It can be described as cute, calm,soft...

24 July 2009...
In the midnight, as usual, dad would come to our room, giving us a chance to "complaining, gossiping and upgrading the latest home news" to him...
A group of family members, Jing shown dad the video of FEIBOU, how clever is feibou, our topic for that midnight was about dog...
Dad did not like dog, mum did not want to have dog because she knows her daughters are "3 min hot attidude" and lazy...
As usual, dad still did not like dog, but his perception was changing. He realised that having puppy is a good training for his's lazy daughters to develop caring, loving-kindness, learning how to giving love to someone and so on...
It was a nice and sweet night chat...

25 July 2009...
After having dinner in Sungai Long club, we persuaded mum to bring us to the Cannaught petshop.
Luckly us that it had a new puppy golden retriever just arrived the pet shop..Golden retriever is my dreaming puppy after seeing the documentary videos that golden retriever is good friends for blind peoples, helping to rescued victims in the earthquake and having 7 years old child' brain...
It sound it is a prefect dog
However, Meimei and me had not enough courage to have puppy due to my laziness and loving freedom charateristics.

26 July 2009
Early morning, all of us start acted hardworking in order to build up a good image for mum and get her permission for having a puppy at home.
Dad helped us to ask the workers to build up fetches higher to prevent the puppy run out from garden..
Ehm..everything sound good and it seen that our dreams to have puppy will be come true soon..
In evening, we were so excited and went to the pet shop again and buying the puppy.. RM 1790 with certificate and chips...
Our New Family Members...........

On the way back home, everyone was thinking of her name
Suggestions by
Dad- Emi
Mum- Diamond
Jing- Esther, money money in chinese, gold in chinese, money come in chinese...etc
Dhammesi- bou bou since Jing's dog is feibou.
So at last, we named it as Diamond....

Happy to be at home...
busy cleaning my room because SHE will sleep with us in our room, and our toilet will be the place for HER to shit and shower....
Starting and busy to clear HER "shit" because SHE still did not understand....
SHE is so shy, just walked around room and did not understand and scared to follow us went outside the room areas...
When the time she sleep, she keeped changing place to sleep... She is so cute...
All of us has to lower down our voices when the times she slept...
A good training for mum and all of us...
hahaha...


27 July 2009

什么也不是

悲伤随着快乐而离去， 快乐随着怨倦而消失；
失望里找希望， 希望里带来失望；

享受的过程体验无常的真理，
那么何来悲伤，何来快乐，
一切的感受，只不过像阵风与我们擦身而过。。。。

学习做个瀟潵的人！！！

害怕选择

一切发生的事都发生到太快速，
人生的选择，一个个的浮现，一个个的完成，一个个的跟着结束。
悲伤随着快乐而离去；快乐随着怨倦而消失；
信任因为一次次被骗的经验而学精，

心中的不安也因不知这选择是否对与错，好与坏，幸与不幸。。。
迷惑的选择，造成了迷惑的结果；
早晨的光线,唤醒了沈睡已久的我，
醒一醒吧。。。
是时候，出山一游做个选择去吧！！！！

寻找失去的回忆

一通电话,声音听起来很熟,当下即一时想不起他/她是谁...
这个五月的季节里,一种大地的呼唤声;
唤醒晓薇的内在深层的潜意识,
老朋友,失去连络的老同学...找一找曾经曾拥有过的感觉, 感情及共创的回忆录...

寻找回忆的痕迹
从音乐里找,
从电话里找,
从照片中找,
从思想中找,

原来我并不是孤单的....